Monday Morning Blues

This past weekend has not been the best, especially Sunday.  My diet doesn’t seem to be working and I fell off the wagon of healthy eating.  Sunday,  I had a HUGE glass of ice cream.  Nothing could satisfy me.  I think part of it was just disgust that nothing seems to work with me.  My sugars are still up even though I am taking more insulin.  I have been trying to eat healthy, vegetables and meat and limiting carbs to an occasional sweet potato.  I am taking all my meds as prescribed.  Yet, I don’t seem to be getting anywhere.

My nephew, wrote a blog this morning which captured how I feel.  http://dreambigdreamoften.co/2015/10/12/2-simple-tips-when-you-are-feeling-a-down-turn/

He calls it a downturn.   It really spoke to me.  He also had a couple of tips to help move on.  For me, it was a moment of just not caring.  Feeling you have done everything right and the results are not what you are looking for.  Have you ever been there?  I think most of us have.  Since I am still not sleeping well at night, I spent much of the night listening to praise music and preaching.  I still got up this morning feeling like a failure.

During my devotion this morning, I unloaded on God.   Remembering how Jesus must have felt on the cross,, I felt ashamed.  Ashamed that I allowed my failures to have so much of an impact on me.

I began searching God’s Word for my answer.  I found this scripture in Exodus.

Exodus 15:2 (ESV)

The Lord is my strength and my song,
and he has become my salvation;
this is my God, and I will praise him,
my father’s God, and I will exalt him.

So my answer is to be found in the Lord, my God.  The Apostle Paul was very familiar with weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:10 Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

I guess we are in good company when we feel weak.  So what do we do when we encounter these “downturns” in life.  I think my nephew had a couple of great tips to get us moving.

I found these  scriptures in Isaiah.

Isaiah 40:29-31

He gives strength to the weary, And to him who lacks might He increases power. Though youths grow weary and tired, And vigorous young men stumble badly, Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.

This lets me  know that God will surely give strength to me regardless of  how I much I feel like a failure.  I wrote these words in my journal this morning.  “My redeemer lives today in my heart and in my soul.”   I can depend on his help when I grow weary and disgusted with myself.  We all need encouragement from time to time and I find it in God’s Word.   Hope you have a wonderful and blessed day.