Archive for August, 2009

Anguish in Prayer

August 28, 2009

I recently heard part of a sermon on You tube by David Wilkinson on Anguish and taking the time to have a spirit that is searching for God’s miracles on others behalf . I have to say that this really impacted me. Perhaps because I have a very dear friend who has a tumor on the brain and has undergone brain surgery and also, family members who have healing needs as well.   Carrying others burdens when they can’t or standing in the “gap” (a place between God and man) is not an easy task.  It takes, concern, perseverance and an unshakable faith that God is able to perform devine works and it also takes confidence in his Word and confidence in GOD.

When I was a child I remember my Grandmother, crying out to God, seeking God on behalf of our family.  She would scribble on everything writing to God.  I still have some of these.  She would write on brown grocery bags or pieces of of scrap paper.  After she died, I found a piece of paper where she had written down, many years before about a cousin, John Harold,  who had been killed tragically in an automobile accident.  There must have been some concern on her part whether John Harold was saved or whether he wasn’t.  She said she had gone to prayer praying for him at 5am that morning and finished praying at 8 pm, asking God about John Harold.  She described her interceedings with the Lord as crying out to Him.  In her notes, she had a vision that evening of a child in the Lord’s arms and she knew that John Harold was resting with the Lord.  In our day and age of being so busy, there are very few people who take the time to go before the Lord in prayer like this. 

I believe David Wilkinson was giving the same kind of message to his Church.  The failure to do this is more lack of time than lack of concern.  But perhaps I am wrong.  We usually take time for what really concerns us.  I did a little research on scriptures regarding anguishing before the Lord and found that there are a great number of scriptures that relate to this in the bible.  Here are just a few.

  1. Isa. 38:2  Then Hezekiah turned his face toward the wall and prayed unto the Lord.  3.  And said remember now, O Lord, I beseech thee, how I have walked before thee in truth and with a perfect heart, and have done that which is good in thy sight.  And Hezekiah wept sore.
  2. Psa. 130:1  Out of the depths have I cried unto thee.  O Lord.  2.  Lord, hear my voice: let thine ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications.
  3. Psa 141:1  Lord, I cry unto theee: make haste unto me:  give ear unto my voice when I cry unto thee.  2.  Let my prayer be set forth before thee as incense: and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice.
  4. Eph. 5:18  Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints.
  5. Heb. 5:7  Who in the days of his flesh, when he had offered up prayers and supplications with STRONG crying and tears unto him that was able to save him from death, and was heard in that he feared:
  6. Luke 22:14  And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly:   and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground.

Let’s all take time to go to our Lord and maker, Jesus Christ, in cryings of anguish.  Let’s lay before the Lord seeking His mighty power and His grace on behalf of our family, friends, our nation and Israel.  May God richly bless you in all that you do.



August 18, 2009

Cleanses for the liver, gut, bowel, and blood  are the rage for helping rid oneself of toxins and chemicals and promoting good health.  Many claim  it is just another way for the vitamin and natural cures industry to make more money off those who are gullible.  Perhaps it is for some.  But if a person is in search of optimum health or help with a serious illness as in my case then you do have hope that these kinds of measure might help.  Therefore, I am willing to try some of these cleanses to see if they may help.  I  decided that I could benefit from cleansing my body from toxins, etc.   After all, as long as I take care, what do I have to lose.  

So I investigated several different cleanses, mostly on the internet. Among others, I looked into the Master Cleanse which uses a lemon juice concoction with maple syrup and cayenne pepper.    It also uses herbal cleanses as well as a salt cleanse.  Many people complained bitterly and had trouble doing the regimine.    I also investegated Dr. Jungers clean Program used by Gwyneth Paltrow and other cleanses as well.    Because I have health issues (Diabetes and Diabetic Neuropathy as well as other health concerns) I was somewhat dubious.  but wanted to proceed to see if I could 1) lose weight ( although not the primary concern) and 2) cleanse my system from toxins that complicate my medical conditions.  I finally decided I needed a cleanse that would work gently but thoroughly and allow my body to detoxify on its own without too much use of herbal cleanses.  I also decided that I needed a cleanse that would not cause fluctuations in my blood sugar.  In the end, I developed my own cleanse and was able to achieve some good results.   Please be sure to discuss this with your health care physician before proceeding.  I had the desired results.  I lost 18 lbs in 10 days.  Of course as soon as I started eating again I gained 4 lbs.  back but have managed to keep 14 lbs off.  Since I have tried to lose weight for 2 years with little or no success I was very happy.  In fact, I plan to go on this cleanse every 6 months and a short cleanse every 2 months of 1 to 7 days in duration. 

 Here is the cleanse.  Hope this works as well for you as it did for me.


DAY 1:

  1. Prepare and take Apple Cider Vinegar Cocktail (ACV) before each meal – Recipe in ACV blog to follow.
  2. Eat all the fresh vegetables and fruit you desire ( Diabetics should watch their blood sugars when eating certain fruits i.e, watermellon, etc.  Try to stick with apples and fruits low on the glycemic index.  Check out blog on Low Glycemic index fruits and vegetables to follow.    You may eat these raw which is preferable or slightly cooked in a pressure cooker or sauted.  You may also use a  salad dressing ( recipe at the end of this article).
  3. Prepare and take 2 garlic tablets after each meal (Cut fresh garlic into small tablet size)  Make sure you take these on a full stomach. Check out a discussion of garlic and it’s benefits on future blogs to follow.
  4. Mix water,  lemon juice, honey and cayenne pepper and drink 8 oz upon rizing – 8 oz before each meal and 8 oz at bedtime. (Read  Recipe blog to follow soon )
  5. Drink distilled water to finish out your daily liquid intake requirements – (See blog on daily intake requirements of water to follow soon)
  6. Take a Calcium, Vit D and magnesium supplement
  7. Take a good quality multi-vitamin
  8. Take B12, B Complex and B 6

Day 2:

  1. Same as Day 1

Day 3:

  1. Same as Day 1 & Day 2

Day 4:

  1. Same as Day 1, Day 2 and Day 3
  2. Add in 8 oz. of sauerkraut juice – lst thing in the morning on an empty stomach (I tooks a larg jar of sauerkraut and drained the juice and then I refilled it with distilled water so that I could use it  a second time.)

Day 5:

  1. Same as Day 4
  2. Non Diabetics – Drink 1 qt. of  orange juice in the morning
  3. Non Diabetics – Drink 1 qt of unsweented grape juice at lunch
  4. Non Diabetics – Drink 1 qt of pineapple juice at Dinner
  5. Diabetics should substitute green juices and vege juices instead.

Day 6:

  1. Same as Day 4
  2. Drink an abundance of green vege juices
  3. Drink papaya with green veges

Day 7:

  1. Same as day 6

Day 8:

  1. Same as Day 7
  2. Add in Acidophilus milk, tablets or good quality yogurt with acidophilus in it.

Day 9:

  1. Same as Day 8
  2. Begin to add in meats ( choose from tuna packed in water  served on top of salads), salmon baked,  broiled,  grilled or salmon patties ( recipe at the end of the article), grilled or baked chicken) if u choose.  (Be sure to check out my mayonaise recipe at the end of this article. 
  3. May begin to add in fiber cerals.

Day 10:  Last Day of Cleanse

  1. Same as Day 9

Body should be completely ready for Restorative Diet – To restore your body to total health and wellness.  Look for future blogs regarding Restorative Diet.

Dealing with Pain

August 13, 2009

I have decided to write about the process of dealing with pain this week because that is all I can think about at present.  I have chronic sustained pain as a result of diabetic neuropathy.  Sometimes the pain is so intense that I cannot function at all.  I don’t like to be in pain and neither does anyone else whether it is short term, long term, spasmodic, acute or just plain annoying.  Yet, it is a fact of  life that at some point everyone will have to deal with it.  My pain is debilitating and has affected every aspect of my life from the inability to work,  to sleep or even to focus or think without the interference of pain.  I often feel as though my entire life now is revolving around my level of pain.  As time has gone on, I have learned several things that help me deal with pain but I am the first to admit that it is a new challenge each day and I succeed better on some days than others and many times I fail miserably.

Naturally, one of the first measures for dealing with pain is the use of medications.  I have always hated taking medications even for colds or headaches.  In fact, when first seeing a Doctor for my illness I was adamant that I wanted natural cures and vitamins.  I, like so many others, feared becoming addicted to pain medications.  Even assurances  from Doctors that the medications, if taken properly, would not be habit forming left me with very little confidence.  Unfortunately, as time progressed and my pain levels increased, I found myself taking more and more medications. 

I remember breaking my ankle a couple of years ago and was given morphine over the course of a week.  That is the first time in years that I have been pain free.  I can remember thinking as I felt the effects of the morphine go down one arm into my leg and then the other, I can actually think clearly.  Of course, I couldn’t, as I was high on morphine but the shock to me was how fuzzy my brain was from all the pain.  I have chosen not to take any more pain medications than I have to in order to continue living.  I believe that over the years, I have built up a high tolerance for pain and prefer not to take drugs unless absolutely needed.

Besides the pain, you also have to deal with all sorts of other things such as fear, anxiety and depression, feelings you are alone in the world with your pain and having no one you can discuss it with.  All of these are big obstacles and interfere with your ability to handle the pain.  I have several techniques that I use, either consciously or unconsciously to help me deal with the pain and want to share these with you.  They may seem somewhat simplistic in nature but I have found that they help me.  Try them and let me know if they help or maybe you have some others that work for you.

  1. Focus your attention on something else or someone else and their needs:   Forcing  one’s self to concentrate on something else, such as writing this blog,  fixing lunch, or  anything that you can use to distract yourself from the pain helps you get outside your circle of pain.  Often, thinking about others and their needs, helps you to forget about the intensity of the pain.  Yes, it is still there, but the level of pain becomes less.
  2. Try to find meaning outside the pain:  No one wants pain to run their lives and to be the center of their lives.  But pain has a way of having a life of it’s own.  There are many things you can still do that have meaning to others and bring joy to you.  Find new activities that you can do and find joy in doing them.  I am preaching to myself on this one.  As we become less and less active and more and more sedantarywe begin to do less and less.  It becomes a vicious circle.  You have to be innovative and creative and find some areas that you can still do.  I know how easy it is to say, that requires too much effort and I don’t have it to give.  It’s up to you to find the things you can do and put meaning into them.
  3. Refuse to become angry and difficult:  I fight this everyday of my life and sometimes I do alright and other times, I just don’t.  We become easily angered and frustrated and this only intensifies the pain.  We don’t feel like anyone understands us and go out of their way to upset us.  The truth is that dealing with pain is difficult and frustrating and we take this out on those who are closest to us.  Sometimes just talking is difficult and our family thinks we are angry with them when we are in too much pain to cope.  Honestly, sometimes I have to send myself to my room and shut myself away until I can control my tongue and become fit company.   
  4. Stay involved:  Stay in contact with your family and friends as much as possible.  I have found myself becoming more and more of a shut-in.  Keep in touch through the phone, personal contact, letters and using the computer.  I like this method for me because I have such trouble focusing that I can take my time and write down my thoughts and it takes less energy. 
  5. Make yourself responsible for your own cure:  I think it helps to search out natural cures for your own disease and try them (of course, with Dr’s knowledge and permission).  Don’t give up on a cure for you.  Keep hope alive.  Actively involve yourself with your course of treatment.  It is so easy to give up and accept the fact that you have this condition and pain.  It’s like a circle that surrounds you and you can’t get outside the circle.  That circle of pain and disease can be broken.  I believe this with all my heart for me and for you.  It is so important for you to believe this and believe it strongly every day.
  6. Get up every morning:    I just want to cover my head up and forget the world exists outside my circle of pain.  I want to give in to it, I want to surrender and say, here I am and here I will stay.  Well DON’T.  Make a committment to yourself to ALWAYS GET UP AND START THE DAY AFRESH.  It is a new day with new hope and with new joy awaiting your arrival on the scene.  Today is a day full of memories awaiting.  A day full of possibilities.  Don’t allow pain to consume your possibilities.
  7. Pray:  I don’t know what you have faith in but I believe in God the Father, God the Son (Jesus Christ) and God the Holy Spirit.  Sometimes, no matter what techniques I try to use, the pain is just beyond me.  So I cry out to my maker, my God to help me.  Often, I can feel an unexplainable presence fill my soul with joy.   This helps me to get ouside my circle of pain and be thankful for the positive things in my life., i.e., family, friends, even life itself.  It is a precious gift from God.

I hope some of these techniques for dealing with pain may be of some help to you.  Let me know.  I desire your comments.


August 7, 2009

I did very little research before I made up my mind to blog. I checked out a few sites on beginning blogging, read a few articles and jumped in with both feet.  Since I did not know how to get started I chose to host my blogs.  There are other sites but this was the first and only one I really went to.    I am sure that I will make a lot of mistakes but who really cares?  I will still achieve something. 

Which leads me to my next thought.  Why blog at all?  My reasons are simple.  Since becoming disabled, I have very little contact with anyone other than immediate family.  A lot of this is by choice.  I just don’t feel well enough to be to involved with people and I can’t do the things I once did.  Things such as work, activities at Church, hobbies, going out to dinner with friends, even having telephone conversations, etc., all require too much energy and effort.  I have talked with other people who have disabilities and they all seem to say the same thing.  Our lifestyles change and change drastically in some cases.  In my case, I let these things go gradually, over time, as my conditions worsened.  Truthfully, I miss them.  These activities helped define who I was and now it seems that my condition defines who I am.  In fact, I am not even sure that I will be able to keep this up but I want to try.

Secondly, I joined Face Book, MySpace  and Twitter to get outside of my own existence and health issues.  I wanted to stay connected and/or reconnect with family and friends.  I have found that these are great outlets for social networking but do not provide me with a forum in which I have enough space to say anything  of value.  I love it because it gets me outside myself and I feel like I am socializing and keeping up with people.  Friends write blurps about health care, politics, current issues but the forum just doesn’t seem right for me to engage in these conversations.  There just isn’t enough room if you wish to discuss the pros and cons of their position and besides that is not why I joined those networks.  I have found myself, recently, wanting to reply with another viewpoint but there is not enough room to discuss the issues.

I just decided that I have some things to say and other people might be interested in hearing what I have to say. In any case, at the very least, it gives me a place to vent (let out my thoughts) without having to defend them.  Many times, because of the meds I take, I can’t form my thoughts fast enough or focus well enough to defend my views or feelings, if challenged.  I have to have time to think about it and try to recall facts that have gone out of my mind.  Besides, I am more interested in speaking my heart instead of my head. 

So that is why I am here writing my first blog.  I don’t want to drop in and say hello or make a comment.  I want to have a discussion with myself and with you.  I want to focus my thoughts.  This afternoon, there was too much going on and I found myself so frustrated because I couldn’t handle everything coming at me.  I felt like throwing my hands up in defeat, bursting into tears and fleaing to my room.  I did eventually flea to my room.  Being disabled has left me with very few things that I can control.  Maybe, just maybe, I can control this blog and by doing so, it will give me some feelings of achievements.  Maybe, I will feel like I have accomplished something.  Maybe I will get back some measure of control over some aspect of my life. 

I will let you know in my upcoming blogs.   I want to learn as much about you as you will learn about me.   Stay tuned, there is more to come.  I will be looking for your comments.

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August 7, 2009

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